Being Lonely And Alone Sucks

…..enough said.

About songtothesirens

First off, I am not very funny. Secondly, I am a full-blown geek; I like chess (it is my favorite game), I enjoyed writing research papers in college, I enjoyed statistics and any other kind of math. But, in my old age (43), I have learned to own my geekdom, it is uniquely mine. Third, I have manic-depressive illness which can make life a bit rocky sometimes, like when the medications are not strong enough to treat the illness, then it bites me in the ass…..hard. Most of the time, though, I ride the sine wave that are normal moods. It is an interesting disease to have though. You do a lot of self reflecting and exploration which can be rough, but you can see where you have made mistakes and you can take action to prevent that behavior in the future. Fourth, I have learned how not to settle for anything; bad medical care, toxic and angry people, bad food, bad relationships. I just will not settle anymore. I have already been there and done that. Fifth, I have learned over the years it is not cool to puke through your nose because you drank too much at a party or a bar. Sixth, I love to read everything from fiction to non-fiction to school textbooks. I do not remember learning to read. My mom says when I was about 3 or 4 years old, I picked up National Geographic and began to read it. Who knew? Seventh, and possibly last, I love music of all types except Rap. My favorite music to relax to is classical preferably of the Baroque period like Amadeus Mozart and Beethoven. I love going to the movies by myself. If you go on a Monday afternoon matinée, there is usually no one there so it is like having your own private theater. I am also a Nichiren Buddhist by way of spiritual belief. I am basically just weird. .
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3 Responses to Being Lonely And Alone Sucks

  1. tiramit says:

    But there’s aloneness too, a good feeling, just happily getting on with things?

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    • Sorry for the late response, I have been busy collecting names on a petition for a Children’s Court Judge nominee.

      I agree there is aloneness, too. It just takes getting used to it after having lived with someone for a number of years.

      I’ll feel better once they open the swimming pool in my complex. Then, I can go back to cycling in the morning, and swimming in the afternoon. Those are two activities where I do not mind being alone.

      And, yep, i am working on getting on with stuff, but there was a lot of abuse in this relationship so it is taking a while to process it :)

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  2. This feels different from aloneness. That I am perfectly okay with. This is definitely lonlie
    ness.

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